My Path?

I awoke this morning with a memory of a question posed a few years back: "What would your 5yo self think of you today?" Then I thought, my 5yo self would be disappointed in the person that I have become due to the fact that she was a fearless beast who lived life like a big adventure. while I have become this increasingly timid person. Although I have stepped out and attacked certain fears, ie becoming a fire fighter- fear of fire to going on a Missions trip and talking to folks about God, I still haven't changed much in my career. This realization has been making me very unhappy. For the past few weeks, really after the missions trip, I have been asking myself, "what do you want to do?" Simple question really, but yet I have no answer. Facts: - I LOVE Chemistry - I love skincare and esthetics - I have developed a serious passion for working out and becoming healthier - I love children and long to become a mother - I strongly desire to become a wife - I really like socializing - I love people and I love making a difference in folks lives - I want my OWN! I somehow wish I could wrap that into one thing. find my niche. But for now, I'll keep grinding and praying that God will reveal his purpose for me and let his path shine so bright that it'll be hard for me to ignore! Think Big folks!!!

Date #6 with guy #4: Mr.A

Well I met another one off the fishing site.
He was cute yes, but short!!! Put it like this, I wouldn't be wearing 4 in heels around him.

So we decided to meet at a local spot for lite diner. I called him early to tell him that I would be late and he was already on his way. Needless to say he was annoyed and it showed. But in my defense, I did call him 20mins early to change the time.

I arrived and he was dressed for a weekend date, I was dressed for work, jeans, boots and a nice top.
Things seemed well till he informed me that I was the 3rd date from the site and the others wouldn't make it to a 2nd.
That threw me off my game because I spent time wondering if we are were going to have another. He assured me that we would, we hugged and went our ways. But no plans were made.

Now, days later, he says his wknd is booked and he hopes its a good one. My besties mom called it when she said he seemed like an uptight jerk. Now I have to argue with my mom who believes he is secretly gay, LOL.
I love my mothers!!!!!

Challenge complete???? Naaaaaaah

So as you can see, I've been on 5 dates since Jan 1st and it's only the 16th! Technically I am done.
But since I began pooling these guys from before, I will adjust my personal Vday challenge to....

 5 different guys by Valentines day!!!

 Therefore, I have gone out with 3 guys and have to somehow meet 2 more. Yikes!

Now this doesn't change anything for those of you who are joining me. Especially if you are just starting.
And remember, I'm here to help. I've set up some online dating profiles for participants already.

How are you doing with the challenge?????

Date #5: New Player!!!!! Hill Billy Bob

LMBO oh my goodness! This has to be among the worst dates EVER!!!!


OK ok, let me stop laughing so I can type....... woooosaaaaaaah

Met him on the free online site. He paid a very nice compliment and although he wasn't my type physically, it turns out that we attend the same church. So I decided to give him a shot

I've been texting him for a little while now and was growing tired of that. I called because I was out and he was bored. Asked him if he liked sushi and he said he never had it (score!). So I suggested meeting at a little
sushi spot that I like in the area. He said "ok, but I don't have any money right now, I'm waiting for a check.. Check? I asked. Yes he's currently having difficulty since he's a contractor. This I do understand. But he lives at home and his parents. PAUSE
His parents are growing tired of him being there and he's about to get his own place. But he has no job? Breathe Exhale

Ok, so we met at the mall instead. He parked next to me and immediately I came up with his name. Dude didn't even take time in his outfit or maybe he did. (I caaaaan't stop laughing)
He fussed the entire time about how people buy things they don't need, fussed at the sale items in Macy's!!! Macy's!!!! It's not like we were in Nordstroms! (breathe) then went into details that his shoes came from Payless, pants from walmart and shirt from Target.
Now here's the thing, I shop in those places too. But I don't run around telling someone on a first date/meeting about it. I responded that Target was expensive and I prefer Old Navy. He then went on a list of stores that he shops from and then said "Holister", WTheck!!!!!!!!
Holister!!!!
You're fussing about a $20 dress in Macy's and you claim to shop in Holister?????? (brb, gonna wet myelf from laughter ROFLMBO)

And oh wait, he wants to go to Golden Coral for our next meeting (LMBOLMBOLMBO)

Ok, maybe I do expect more. But he called me fancy and I had on sweatpants and timberlands. I don't know if he was testing me or what. But I'm thinking I failed. He was too all over the place and right now, I won't settle just because it's cold out side.

Friends it is!!!!

Date #4: Make-up for Bear!

He was soo upset with how things ended on Friday (date #2) that he had to come to see me on Sunday. He came to my house.  This was a big deal for me but I'll explain in a later post titled "4yr anniversary" coming soon.
Although he wanted to sit in my house and just watch tv, we decided to head out to a local gourmet grocery store that has a restaurant that I have never been to. We got there and he was sooo happy to see all the things he could eat (vegetarian). I was just being greedy and wanted to eat everything in site!!!
We went into the lounge room and watched the game, talked, people watched and ate. It was kinda nice and cozy.
Afterwards, we went back to my house and watched 1/2 of a movie (since he saw the other half already). But when he went to leave, he came back and I could tell that he wanted something deeper. Something that I am not ready to give yet.
Sadly, I am still unsure if I want to stop dating and be with him exclusively. But I think he may be getting there.
I could tell he was disappointed, but a perfect gentleman about it.

We shall see.......

Date #3: Round Two with Puggles

I have to admit, after our last date, I was pretty excited going into this one. But when we were trying to get organized on the phone, it quickly headed south. We just couldn't find a middle point.

At first he mentioned ice skating. But with my recent injuries, that was not a good idea (although I really wanted to go). Then again with the timing of things, he works on Saturdays and we were meeting on a Saturday, how would that have been possible???
After a serious back and forth, we finally decided on movie and a meal. We get there and he already started fussing about this and that. I have to admit that I wasn't too happy when I saw teenagers getting off the bus in droves heading towards the theater.
We finally went to the mall to grab a bite at the restaurant and it was the most expensive soul food spot and we truly didn't have time. Oh, I forgot to mention. He actually asked me to pay. I was taken aback but then reminded myself that he said he didn't make it to the ATM yet. So I did!
While eating, little comments like "well I'm used to ghetto chicks that curse and roll their heads" kept coming up. I guess this was his way of calling me uppity? I don't know but I ignored it.
We went to the movies and dealt with the kids acting a fool!!!!!!!!! Soo many people left and even the cops came and sat in the theater. But we stayed, ignored them and we in our own little world.

At the end of the night, I had to go to the restroom and we already left the theater and they wouldn't let me back in. so we went to the gas station (umm yea I had to go that bad!!!). When I came out, he was gassed up and ready to go. We kissed (a little peck) and said bye and before I could make it to my car, he was GONE!!!

Wow, for a second there, I was nervous that I may like 2 guys at the same time. NOT!!!!!!

#ontothenext.....

Another view point of Dating

Here is a good article I read the other morning about the approach to chemistry and dating:

http://advice.eharmony.com/about-you/your-chemistry-meter-broken?cid=2091&aid=0810113